Fail.

This is my day of disappointment.  I gained 2.8lbs.  I'm sitting heavy at 227.6lbs.  Disappointment is a euphemism for how I really feel :-(

Great Unexpectations

Hello!  The weather has been putting a damper on my progress and we had a canceled meeting last week.  However, I weighed in this morning and came in at 224.8lbs!  Down one pound since my holiday binge-a-thon.  Hopefully my yoga arms can hurry up and come back.  I've been suffering in the past two yoga sessions but I'll make it.

In other news, I was able to run 3 minutes straight but then took 20 minutes to not feel like I was about to fall apart.  It's going to be a long haul.  Interestingly enough, I think my Dad is moving in with me this weekend.  Not sure exactly when but his company got the contract approved for the Bellefont plant north of Scotsboro.  This should be fun or terrible.  I'm up for the challenge and not being in this house by myself.  Hooray!

Run Run Run

Alright!  First full week of 2011 and its been mediocre at best.  I can't complain though because at this time last year, I was still dealing with Mom's diagnosis for breast cancer and hoping that we could still go on our cruise.  Well, this year she is doing well and I'm sitting in the warmth of my house getting ready for tonight's festivities and the year.  Earlier this afternoon I met with my friend Matt and he is going to help me train for a 5k.  I'm a bit nervous because I know that I started out so strong with the couch to 5k program and then just stopped.  No good reason either for stopping so suddenly.  However, I told him the whole story about my weight loss journey and my desire to really push for reaching my 5k goal.  My ultimate goal is to run a marathon by the time I'm 30 and that is a real distant dream.  He is emphasizing cross training and increasing my regime to working out 6 days a week for short amount of times.  Due to my flat feet, we had to start small and then work our way up.  I'm excited.  Plus, now I have a semi-couch that is going to push me!  Especially since he agreed to run with me in my first race!  Goodness!  What have I done?!

However, the best thing in the world is that he said he was really impressed with how serious I am about my plans.  I guess that I haven't really talked about my journey or my plans out loud that much so it surprised me when I got verbal approval.  I'm encouraged and determined.  Let's get to it!

Why hello, 2011.

Happy New Year!  Last year at this time, I was just getting back to my apartment from a busy Christmas break.  The year 2010 was looking promising:  late winter cruise, summer wedding in Wyoming, fall wedding in Baltimore, and many other exciting impromptu adventures.  The icing on the cake was buying my house.  I look back on 2010 and think that its been an incredible ride.

The difference between 2010 and 2011 is that I had plans last year that stemmed from preplanning in 2009.  This year, I haven't done any planning.  I feel like I'm flying by the seat [seam?] of my pants and I have on yoga pants.  Those pants are not meant to fly.  Am I too late to get my act together and make some goals.  My heart and mind say yes.  No real resolutions or goals for me this year but I do have to admit that it has come to my attention that I need to care less.  Perhaps care less is not the best term to use.  As Sarah pointed out, I need to choose who I care about.  Lately I have been giving out care bear hugs like candy and I need to chill out.  I'm working on it.

Anyway!  I have a weigh in on Thursday!  I flew back up to 223.0lbs three weeks ago before the holiday break.  I'm starting up the couch to 5k program again and focusing on the new points program.  After February, I'm going to stop paying for my failure [hiatus from paid WW] and focus on get my mind in the right place.  I know that I'm the only person standing in the way of my progress.  I have to get my mojo back.  Losing 6lbs is alright.  I want to be great.